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Guided Nondual Meditation with Michael Taft
Meditation
Let’s start, as at all times, by simply tuning in to the query: What’s it prefer to be me proper now? So what’s it like? Really feel your physique, your feelings, discover your ideas, no matter else is occurring within the ecosystem. Checking it out. This can be a essential level: no matter is going on in there proper now, simply let that be okay proper now. We’re going to let go of the basic aggression towards ourselves, that always says we have to change our inside state. As an alternative, merely let no matter is going on in there occur, simply the best way it’s proper now. Even when it isn’t that nice, or it’s tremendous nice and also you don’t need it to go away, ever. Only for now, for the size of the sit, let or not it’s nevertheless it’s. So let’s spend a number of moments tuning in to how it’s to be you proper now.
Now, simply tune in—this is sort of a poem or a temper factor—simply permit your self to meditate as in case you are the sky. Let your self be large open, boundless, spacious, free; very shiny and clear–conscious. That’s at all times a part of our expertise, so we’re simply tuning into that a part of our expertise that’s already like that already sky-like, already conscious, already large open. So, even if you happen to solely discover a bit trace of that, tune into it. We’re not tightening down or constricting, or making an attempt to make it totally different or make it huge. Simply discover the pure straightforward openness that’s already a part of our expertise. From the large awakeness that’s a part of that openness, the brilliant, clear, crisp awakeness that’s already there, simply permit consciousness to tune into the rising and falling wave of the breath. It’s like this eternal openness, this open sky is conscious of the rising and falling wind of the breath. We’re not specializing in it, or microscopically or phenomenologically deconstructing it, we’re simply noticing that the breath is rising and falling, that’s all. Quite simple.
Simply permitting the breath to be the breath, and that that feels good, the physique likes to breathe. So there’s a background trace of pleasantness, of pleasure, or funktionslust, with this sense of how nice it’s to breathe. The sunshine wind of the breath, rising and falling inside the sky of consciousness, large open, conscious, sky of consciousness. Discover a very easy, pure sense of stillness that comes into the physique once we permit ourselves to be conscious and large open; respiration very simply. This isn’t stillness from rigidity or self-discipline, that is merely changing into relaxed sufficient that the physique is having fun with stillness, actually free, open, relaxed stillness. Typically once we keep able to act or transfer, now we have a background pressure. Right here we’re releasing that, settling in, merely sitting.
Good. Now, if you happen to already know easy methods to do alternate nostril respiration, go forward and try this. If not, I’ll display. Put your proper thumb in your proper nostril, closing that nostril. Then breathe in via the left nostril. Then shut the left nostril with the center and ring finger, and breathe out via the suitable. Then reverse, inhaling the suitable nostril, closing the suitable, respiration out the left. We’re going to do that for some time–about 5 minutes. You don’t should do it if you happen to don’t prefer it.
It is vitally good for balancing, opening, and getting the brightness of consciousness fairly a bit clearer. When you have been training this for some time, be at liberty to do longer exhales or breath holds, or something like that in case you are conversant with it. In any other case, merely do that back-and-forth respiration. It helps if you happen to sit up actual straight, with the again actually straight. We’re getting bilateral, bihemispheric stimulation doing this.
If you wish to mix this with a visualization, you may, on the in-breath see the breath going into the stomach, see the breath and the stomach lighting up. On the out-breath, see the third eye lighting up. If you wish to mix it with a mantra, on the in-breath, say so-hum; on the out-breath, say han saha. This can be a nondual mantra. The so-hum means “I’m he/she/it”; han saha is “That’s me.” We’re connecting with popping out of the sense of a restricted identification into the a lot bigger, groundless identification of empty consciousness itself. So-hum on the in-breath; han saha on the out-breath. Really feel additionally, moreover the balancing, soothing high quality of this, really feel additionally the way you sense the power physique a bit bit. Minimally, tingling, however typically, a larger sense of embodiment coming ahead.
Now, we began with an in-breath within the left nostril, so preserve going till you do an out-breath on the left nostril. Then permit your self to complete the breath, and easily relaxation because the large open sky of consciousness. Really feel, not solely the breath rising and falling but additionally, the energized physique and the large, large, conscious consciousness.
Once more, on this very open method, not focusing onerous or constricting the eye, simply be with the breath. Significantly the sensation of the motion of the breath, in order that power high quality. In case you are delicate to it, you may even really feel the power behind the breath, that sense of vibratory motion that’s virtually the supply of the breath. So, on this very relaxed, large open, conscious, very open method, we’re simply following the breath, however now in a way more energized method. Feeling the buzzy/tingling/vibratory high quality, maybe all through numerous the physique, many areas of the physique. Let’s simply be with that for some time. Bringing shiny clear consciousness with none tightness in consideration. See if you happen to can discover, simply straight–this isn’t a visualization, you aren’t imagining one thing–see if you happen to can discover how that feeling, that high quality of power within the physique is definitely transferring the respiration, it’s behind the respiration.
We would consider our our bodies as being crammed with pumps and hoses and electrical wiring, and pulleys & levers–all of the metaphors about how the physique works, primarily based on our equipment and tools–however this sense of vibratory power is how the physique feels about itself once we tune into the power behind the respiration. The physique begins to really feel actually good, to calm down and open. That is its native language, so to talk. So, it’s much less of us impinging and colonizing it with our concepts of how we consider it, and fairly feeling the way it feels about itself. Very pure, very relaxed. The physique begins to open to this fashion of seeing. In case you are delicate to this in any respect, you’ll really feel this power all all through your physique, limbs, face, torso. And as you tune into it, not specializing in it, simply enjoyable into the open consciousness of it, it’s going to begin to develop into extra apparent and even develop and develop. After we discover it much more clearly, much more deeply, we see that, to place it on this humorous method of speaking, the power is behind the breath, and behind the power is groundless openness. Simply absolute spacious openness that has no backside, no floor. It’s simply large open. Proper contained in the power is boundless area.
In case you are superb at noticing this, you might be able to observe how area bubbles forth with power, and the power turns into the in-breath, and the in-breath collapses again into power, collapses again into area because the outbreath. Not as a visualization, however a direct notion. It’s possible you’ll even start to really feel how the complete physique, not simply the emotions of the breath, however all the emotions of the physique, are simply large open, boundless area, exuberantly dancing, so to talk. Each sensation is solely the colourful expression of this groundless openness. Very nice to note that.
In the event you work with this for some time, you’ll discover that it impacts the thoughts, the considering course of. Similar to the emotions within the physique may be seen as power and vibration, if we try this sufficient, we begin to expertise ideas that method. Not as cognitive data, they may begin to really feel like vibratory power flows, identical to the physique feels. It can begin to have an effect on how considering is perceived. Arising ideas, as an alternative of being strings of cognitive data, will really feel like a wave of buzzy, tingly flowing power. Nonetheless considering, however in a really totally different mode. And really clearly coming from the identical supply because the breath, the identical vacancy that’s vibrating and dancing its method into being the breath, can be exuberantly expressing itself as flows of thought, which might be merely motion, power, change. We’re not analyzing them as linguistic or cognitive content material.
If that’s too onerous, simply stick with the physique and the breath. However if you happen to can discover that ideas are merely flows of power as effectively, as a direct expertise, not a visualization or creativeness, simply tune into that. Give up into that, and see how that modifications the openness of consciousness to much more unrestricted, uncontained, very awake place.
If you end up getting sleepy, sit up, however preserve going. This isn’t a sleepy time, however a really conscious time. Only a totally different mode of being conscious.
Discover how tuning into the vibratory high quality of thought, the circulation of repeatedly altering thought power will are inclined to dissolve the extra crystalline, inflexible, managed, and outlined facets of the thoughts, and begin to open up the playfulness, openness, non-linearity, large open, conscious and easily spontaneously flowing.
If any a part of the physique begins clamping down or tightening up, simply discover how the breath power lets that open proper up. Not in a combating or struggling method, simply merely enjoyable and opening. Equally, if the thoughts begins clamping down, making an attempt to make sense, interpret, body, management, simply discover that the circulation of thought power transferring and altering, transmogrifying repeatedly simply melts these makes an attempt, dissolves the management body, and lets a way of ease, spaciousness and spontaneity come into the thoughts. Very pure sense of large openness. No want to regulate.
Groundless area itself is considering. Bottomless openness with none boundary is respiration. No matter that appears like, if that’s there, really feel the power behind that. The sensation of being any individual doing something in any respect, particularly respiration, considering, or doing a meditation, has some physique sensation elements, some emotional physique sensation elements, thought elements, all of that are already skilled as flows of power which might be then popping out of groundless large openness. So see if you happen to can discover that the sense of “I’m any individual doing one thing” has a vibratory energetic high quality behind it. You possibly can break it down into thought and feeling, however it is usually obtainable simply straight. There’s the sensation of me being any individual doing one thing. Really feel the vibratory change, the power circulation behind that. It might be simply obtainable, or it could be past your potential proper now. If that’s the case, that’s okay, simply come again to one thing that’s straightforward to contact.
Discover the power behind any individual doing something in any respect. Then, as you’ve in all probability already intuited, discover the area out of which that’s arising. The huge, boundless openness that has no floor in any respect, completely large open, out of which the expertise of “I’m any individual doing one thing” is arising. It’s actually fascinating, once we realize it, as a result of, after all, it isn’t that there isn’t any expertise of any individual doing one thing. Similar to, clearly we’re respiration, we will really feel respiration occurring, however it’s arising out of groundless openness, and clearly there are ideas occurring, however these, too, are arising out of groundless openness. They’re form of there however not there. In the identical method, the sense of “I’m any individual doing one thing” is an apparent expertise that’s there, however can be circulation, change, vibration, power, arising out of groundless area; arising out of nothing, primarily. There, however not there. Large open, conscious. Steady circulation of expertise.
You possibly can say that awakeness itself, area itself, is respiration; area itself is considering; area itself is changing into any individual who appears like they’re doing one thing. However by no means fixating there. Flowing again into power, again into boundless open awakeness with none floor in any respect; nowhere to land, no field to place it in. It’s possible you’ll discover an exuberance, a form of background pleasure, a form of deep pleasantness that comes with simply letting this circulation of expertise circulation with out ever crystallizing into any specific factor. Repeatedly conscious of the groundless openness on the core of it, and but, the vivid and exuberant show of all expertise.
Discover if something does really feel caught, tight, contracted, dense, or crystallized, crimped, you may simply discover the power high quality behind it, the vibratory circulation of steady change behind and inside it. Not as a visualization, however as direct expertise. Then observe that circulation of steady become the huge area of wide-awake large openness proper inside it. In order that even the factor that’s showing as tremendous dense or tight, dense, problematic, is, at its core, simply conscious large openness, flowing with power and spontaneity into being what it’s expressing as. We don’t have to vary it. It doesn’t should be free and open. It may be as tight and bizarre and problematic because it needs, and be in complete contact with the open, spacious, conscious groundless wakefulness that’s its nature.
Even the room round you, the lights, colours, shapes, textures, colours, patterns, rhythms, you may discover as the continual discipline of change, vibration, circulation. Discover that it, too, is arising second by second from a form of exuberance of awake area with none floor in any respect. By no means caught, by no means crystallizing, by no means flattening. At all times fluid, spontaneous, playful, conscious, large open, flowing. It has no boundary and no middle. Awake, large openness. By no means placing itself in a field or getting caught, a steady circulation of spontaneity, of no matter is subsequent.
Excellent. Let’s finish the meditation there. Transfer and stretch; do what that you must do.
Dharma Discuss, Q&A
As I mentioned, we aren’t making an attempt to visualise or think about power. I’m utilizing that phrase – power – not in a physics method, however the feeling in your physique. The thought is that by tuning into that and following it, it’s going to pull you right into a clearer sense of what’s really obtainable, what is going on in expertise.
In the event you do the breath one, did anybody really feel numerous power of their physique while you did that? That may pull you right into a deep absorption. It begins to get stronger and stronger–however that’s not what we’re doing. We’re not making an attempt to enter an altered state. As an alternative, we are attempting to see what’s going on otherwise. We’re used to placing it right into a field and making it right into a factor and defining it in a sure method. After we try this, it may be helpful for all types of issues, and that’s once we are visualizing, you might be experiencing extra of your concepts of what’s occurring fairly than what’s going on. The extra that you simply begin to make a factor out of expertise and resolve what’s occurring. You’re dreaming expertise into what you assume it’s speculated to be.
We’re kinda doing anti-visualization. As an alternative of imagining what is meant to be there, we’re tuning into expertise itself–not which you can ever have bare expertise. However, simply by working in such a method we see the continual altering high quality, it brings in a special mode of expertise. If that’s simply obtainable, you may discover the groundlessness. It’s an expertise, it’s not not there, however you may’t discover a backside to it. It’s not coming from wherever. In a deep sense, it’s nebulous, indefinable, and that’s fascinating. However, that’s not the one fascinating factor. It’s not that we simply wish to go to the undefinable groundlessness and keep there, which a number of folks selected to do, and that’s cool, however that’s not all of what I’m exhibiting you. You possibly can see how that absolutely groundless, nebulous, undefined–no matter–comes again into being every thing. And while you see it that method, all of the stuff that’s coming into expertise is tremendous awake, spontaneous, flowing. None of it’s caught, it’s not in a field. It brings the primordial undefinedness again into being, and that’s tasty, actually feels good, is gorgeous and recent.
One of many issues we do is our yogic respiration; the alternate nostril respiration, Anuloma Viloma, an historical method that has many advantages. One is that it begins making the vibratory high quality a bit clearer. One other is that it helps take you out of your rote patterns of thought, begins taking you out of the worn pathways of your thoughts and opens you as much as one thing totally different. It’s really, surprisingly good at that, only for doing one thing that’s actually mellow. It begins to make a few of these different experiences obtainable. And what’s fascinating is it’s taught in virtually each Yoga class. In the event you go to yoga in any respect, they’ll present you ways to do this, however they by no means actually. I don’t know. They’re simply cool. That’s some power, or like, that’s a very good factor, or it’s gonna clear your chakras, or no matter. But it surely’s very, very uncommon that they’ll present you what you may actually do with one thing like that. Even one thing actually easy like that. You possibly can work with it quite a bit. It’s very fascinating. It’s very highly effective. It comes from Tantrism or Vajrayana, which is an excellent highly effective method of working, however numerous the background of understanding has been left behind, and is now utilized in a way more pedestrian method, which doesn’t actually provide the keys to opening it up. So simply know that, regardless that you may be taught to do one thing like that throughout, studying to work with it’s typically not defined. We’re doing a bit little bit of that right here.
Are there experiences or something arising from folks on the market? Any questions, feedback, intense critiques?
Questioner 1: It appears to be that in a single a part of the follow it is rather energy-arousing, and one other half that’s fully enjoyable. I ponder easy methods to navigate between the 2; Do I simply observe what feels good? Is there one thing else I can search for? Tips on how to steadiness it as a result of they’re so reverse.
Michael: That is the core of what meditation is: a steadiness of getting actually relaxed and getting actual awake. Usually now we have these two modes of being–tremendous relaxed however unconscious–being asleep–or being awake, however being very agitated and tense. These are the default modes of human expertise. What we’re doing is mixing the nice components of each. You possibly can think about [sound went out]. So, on this meditative course of, we’re getting extra deeply relaxed whereas being extra awake. Extra awake whereas being extra relaxed, and getting deeper and deeper into that. In order that’s what you might be describing – the good place, the steadiness between dullness and agitation.
However we’re doing one thing extra right here, as a result of that’s simply shamatha. We’re doing extra, which is the additional step of: now have a look at the vacancy high quality, the wide-openness, the spaciousness, nebulosity, undefinedness, groundlessness. However that’s only one route in meditation that leads you–to Advaita, to this actual transcendental place. And you may keep there, however don’t! That’s solely midway there so far as I’m involved. That’s cool how it’s spacious, it’s nebulous and undefined. However there is usually a robust behavior to show that into this pure land of conscious consciousness, and this complete world of expertise is in some way polluting, or is a nonsense dream, and it’s simply my groundless conscious consciousness that’s the solely actuality. To me, that’s only a actual useless finish.
As an alternative, as a result of that’s one thing so apparent, so disembodied; there’s something else that’s staring you within the face, and that’s that vacancy is exuberant, it’s spontaneous, it’s crammed with power that desires to come back again into being. It’s making every thing occur each second. You possibly can trip that again out, which is totally different from rest and awakeness. It’s vacancy and kind, to make use of Buddhist terminology, or groundless large openness and exuberant show. So, we at all times wish to come again to that exuberant show additionally, that’s when it’s actually the total expertise of being alive as an alternative of placing your self into an vacancy gap.
Proper? So we’re taking part in backwards and forwards, from simply show, into the vibratory high quality of the show, which takes you into the openness, however as an alternative of simply hanging on the market, we really feel how the openness has power, and it brings you again into being, every thing is rendered abruptly, and that’s fascinating.
Questioner 1: These two qualities of the vacancy half and the exuberant power – to maneuver backwards and forwards? Or do you see it as from the vacancy comes the exuberance – a development, fairly than discovering a steadiness?
Michael: Each are completely cool methods to expertise issues, however ultimately it’s kinda simply all occurring. We will, for the sake of meditation/experiment/having enjoyable, you may go into one or the opposite, or trip, or simply kinda relaxation. The excellence I’m making is that it’s all simply occurring on the similar time. So, we will simply sit with all of it occurring on the similar time. However, till you do the extremes backwards and forwards, backwards and forwards, it’s onerous to note it occurring suddenly.
Questioner 1: Excellent
Michael: Thanks on your query. Different stuff?
Questioner 2: Just a bit preamble to my query. Working with power, experiencing power behind emotions has helped me quite a bit with understanding equanimity. That’s been very fascinating; like attachment and anger all have an analogous nature or worth now. However one factor that’s troublesome to work with is ennui; it’s kinda onerous to explain what it’s.
Michael: You’re in a roomful of People, so let’s say “boredom.”
Questioner 2: Existential boredom, as I’ve skilled it in my life, is as “so what”–the state of “so what-ness.” It’s extra like an absence of worth.
Michael: Are you describing what we would name despair?
Questioner 2: I don’t know the way it arises, it simply randomly comes up. There’s in all probability some karmic storage, additionally all of the moments that I’ve skilled all through my complete life, at the same time as a child or teenager. So, once I wish to work with this within the type of power, first, I sought the power behind it, however it’s difficult as a result of it questions even the conscious area, it questions every thing in type of worth. And second, with thought, it felt just like the power behind it was worry, like lack of worth or which means, however then I felt the sensation behind it was demise, there was no power in it. And so, the worry of demise, of lack of which means or power, as a result of there may be power in every thing.
Michael: Why would that be dangerous?
Questioner 2: Yeah, I don’t know. It feels dangerous. There isn’t a motivation to do something, there may be simply demise. There isn’t a worth.
Michael: Have you ever ever been capable of not do something?
Questioner 2: Umm…Form of.
Michael: However solely form of, proper, you’re nonetheless respiration, getting as much as go to the toilet, you continue to find yourself sleeping. There’s really numerous doing in all of that “no purpose to do something.” And so it’s fascinating.
Questioner 2: Yeah, I believe it isn’t doing something helpful, in order that’s what the boredom is about. So, I used to be questioning if anybody else experiences this?
Michael: A number of folks expertise it. It’s highly effective. It’s a bit bit deeper of a spot, proper, while you begin noticing that? The secret’s that whether it is actually so useless and all of that, why would that even matter? If it was actually useless, it wouldn’t matter to you that it felt that method. However there may be nonetheless worry, there’s nonetheless “you don’t need it,” so there’s tons of which means wrapped up in it. As quickly as you discover that there’s valence there, then you might be out of it, or at the very least probably out of it. So there may be that route, simply noticing: why does a few of this get to matter? If it actually didn’t matter, you wouldn’t care. So there may be some mattering there, and that’s one solution to work with it.
One other method is to search out that worry. That’s some actually, huge, power–not some small power–that’s actually fascinating, and see the identical factor: it’s received all that spontaneity, depth, flowingnes, after which that’s already beginning to have the aliveness in it. Let your self really feel the worry. We do demise sangha in right here, which is arising right here on the weekend of Halloween. A giant a part of that’s feeling the aliveness of that tremendous worry, proper? And disgust, disgrace, hatred, all that. So we aren’t making an attempt to suppress that, deny it, make it go away or management it, however fairly, really feel the power of it, after which discover that that power is large open groundless area, too, and tremendous awake. Then we will trip again even into the ennui and the flatness, and see that it has a brand new high quality. It’s probably not new, however we will discover the standard, that it’s really very alive. In order that’s the power method in. That’s a few methods of working with it.
Questioner 2: Yeah, that is sensible. There are all types of peripheral energies and I can work with them. Thanks.
Questioner 3: Feeling like I’ve a very good sense of touching into vacancy and coming again once we are working with power behind the physique, behind a way of self. I discover when I’ve open eyes within the room typically I get a touch round temporality and taking part in with {that a} bit. Visible phenomena are fascinating. I can discover the circulation of change inside it, however I don’t have the sense of going right into a voidness and effulgently coming again out of it. A part of me is seeing that there’s an expectation that there must be blinking of phenomena or some perceptual distortion.
Michael: Do you’ve any perceptual distortion in your visible discipline?
Questioner 2: Typically I get a bit fuzzy, depth of colours, the brightness can fluctuate.
Michael: For everybody, totally different sense gates are simpler to note these things in than others. For many folks, exterior visible sight is the one that’s the most concrete. That is merely a method of seeing, a method of perceiving. Discover it within the different senses as strongly as you may, after which work with the visible discipline. Over time, it’s going to begin to reveal its openness. In the event you’ve achieved method too many experiments with humorous molecules, like many people have, it’s often fairly fucking apparent. It’s simply always doing that. So, it simply relies upon. For some folks, the sound is tougher, for some, the physique sensations, however, work with those which might be straightforward first. That opens that method of seeing, after which it begins to kinda infect the opposite sense gates.
One final query
Questioner 3: Once I take into consideration the infinite potential of consciousness, there must be an infinite variety of prospects that would come out of it. Once I sense my actuality, it’s at all times the identical type of set of issues. There’s a sample to being myself. So, what’s it that from all of the infinite area of infinite prospects is funneling it in the direction of a particular set of outcomes, which is my expertise?
Michael: Positive. The reply is “I don’t fucking know.” It simply does that. Lets say habits, or samskaras, or your set of priors–I may provide you with a bunch of explanations, however, it’s all simply sewage popping out of my mouth in comparison with “that’s your expertise.” Then discover that as you begin to tune into the fluctuation and alter that’s there, it’s going to begin to come again in numerous methods. Typically minor, typically main. It received’t be as caught.
Questioner 3: So you may sense how the infinite potentiality is merging into one expertise.
Michael: That’s not what I mentioned. What I’m saying is that if you happen to begin noticing your personal expertise, that potential an increasing number of typically, what comes ahead will probably be much less rote, much less routine. Whereas, whether it is repeatedly out of sight, you’re kinda caught within the routine. I hope that’s useful. I may give a bunch of explanations, however you may learn these wherever, and I don’t assume it helps that a lot, actually.
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